I've started a change in course that could and will likely have some relatively radical outcomes for my way of life.  I stress the word "relatively". Not reality-show life changing, nor Nobel-Peace-Prize-winning changing, nor winning-Powerball life changing.  But I've taken a first step that I'd hoped would give me a sense of relief, but that hasn't come yet.  There has been so much chaos over the past few years and I've finally admitted that I can't, as much as I'd like to, hope or depend that someone else is going to pick up any of these broken pieces.  And so I've been starting the clean up.  One small piece at a time.